Dont Know

so my head has been going a million miles an hour latley and i have no idea why..
Ive been having really stupid thoughts as well....
I want to be pregnent again... i dont know why i want to as i dont want to have any more children just as of yet, though also daniel would kill me if i was to get pregnent again right now,
though yeah i just miss it, i miss that feeling you have inside you knwoing that you have a life growing there, i mis the kicking and the flutters,
I know i would bitch about it htough i really do miss it,

I cant get pregnent yet any how i have had the depo injection, and will be getting quite a few more as i really want my body to have a break and for there to be a nice age gap between the kids,


I dont know i just really miss it

whats been going on

I'm so sorry guys i have not updated in a while, i dont know where to begin,
hmm well......

to start with dad has deacan for the weekend he has taken him up to maryborough to meet the rest of the family, i am missing him like crazy... like yeah the break has been good, though i just want to hold him.. Dad and Rhonda have taken a lot of photos so cant wait to see them,
so here is the newest photo of deacan that i have


Jason is good to, the little cutie is just about walking, and he gives real toothy grins :) its so cute he has come so far so quickly, Jason has had a hair cut again a propper one lol, and he looks like a real boy boy he is still going to daycare three times a week, woul dlike him to go more, just because he loves it there, and i find that when he is there he learns more, also we now have him saying tar, here is the newest photo of Jason that we have



So i am pissed off with my mother in law again, god she gets right under my skin... i am so sick of her saying that Deacan looks like Bryce, or Jason looks like Bryce, none of them look like Bryce, its just really upsetting.... its really hard to explain why it is, though it just is.... i have told her several times that they dont, though she keeps saying it.... i wonder if it could be just to piss me off, or cos she has to get Bryce into every convisation? like we are forgetting him so he has to be acknowledged as well??? like ANYONE is EVER going to forget him, he lives on in all of us, grrrr,
sorry i guess its just my hormones i dont know its jsut the one things that really gets me upset/angry

Daycare

Well Deacan starts daycare on friday, i only have him in for one day so far, i need him to get ued to it first so i can put him in more, so then i can return back to work

Dont know what is wrong

I have no idea what is going on with me, though i wish my body would make up its mind
with what it is doing
I seem to be tired all the time, my moods are all over the shot, smells are making me feel sick like all hell, im hungry and cant stop eating, my breasts have started to make milk again all of a sudden, and i have a massive break out like what the hell

3 days

well today is my third day with out a smoke, and i am feeling quite good,
there have been a few times that i have wanted to rip my patch off and have one though i really wan to do this, and i KNOW i can
its jsut going to take some work, and i am stronger, and i can beat the temptation of the nicotine

Followers

hey guys im not meaning to harp or anything though i was just wondering if i could get everyone who does read this to follow it half way down the right hand side,
just so i knwo who does and does not read this,
sorry dont want to be rude or anything

Day 1

today is my first day with out a smoke,im cheating though and using patches lol
though so far so good, its already 11.54am and im not to bad had a few cravings though only when i got board or when the boys were giving me hell