I have no idea what is going on with me, though i wish my body would make up its mind
with what it is doing
I seem to be tired all the time, my moods are all over the shot, smells are making me feel sick like all hell, im hungry and cant stop eating, my breasts have started to make milk again all of a sudden, and i have a massive break out like what the hell
Friday, May 28, 2010
3 days
well today is my third day with out a smoke, and i am feeling quite good,
there have been a few times that i have wanted to rip my patch off and have one though i really wan to do this, and i KNOW i can
its jsut going to take some work, and i am stronger, and i can beat the temptation of the nicotine
there have been a few times that i have wanted to rip my patch off and have one though i really wan to do this, and i KNOW i can
its jsut going to take some work, and i am stronger, and i can beat the temptation of the nicotine
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Followers
hey guys im not meaning to harp or anything though i was just wondering if i could get everyone who does read this to follow it half way down the right hand side,
just so i knwo who does and does not read this,
sorry dont want to be rude or anything
just so i knwo who does and does not read this,
sorry dont want to be rude or anything
Day 1
today is my first day with out a smoke,im cheating though and using patches lol
though so far so good, its already 11.54am and im not to bad had a few cravings though only when i got board or when the boys were giving me hell
though so far so good, its already 11.54am and im not to bad had a few cravings though only when i got board or when the boys were giving me hell
added more
Hey guys i ahve added more stuff to this page, if you look to the right you will see a space that has links, feel free to look around them and join,
i look at the pages all the time and compleate the surveys for cash or gift cards
also i love free samples lol
i look at the pages all the time and compleate the surveys for cash or gift cards
also i love free samples lol
Monday, May 24, 2010
Information about why we lost Bryce
Placental abruption
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Placental abruption
Classification and external resources
ICD-10 O45.
ICD-9 641.2
DiseasesDB 40
MedlinePlus 000901
eMedicine med/6 emerg/12
MeSH D000037
Placental abruption (also known as abruptio placentae) is an obstetric catastrophe (complication of pregnancy), wherein the placental lining has separated from the uterus of the mother. It is the most common cause of late pregnancy bleeding. In humans, it refers to the abnormal separation after 20 weeks of gestation and prior to birth. It occurs in 1% of pregnancies world wide with a fetal mortality rate of 20-40% depending on the degree of separation. Placental abruption is also a significant contributor to maternal mortality. Many women can die from this type of abnormality.
The heart rate of the fetus can be associated with the severity.[1]
Contents
[hide]
* 1 Lasting effects
* 2 Symptoms
* 3 Pathophysiology
* 4 Risk factors
* 5 Intervention
* 6 References
* 7 External links
[edit] Lasting effects
On the mother:
* A large loss of blood or hemorrhage may require blood transfusions and intensive care after delivery. 'APH weakens, for PPH to kill'.
* The uterus may not contract properly after delivery so the mother may need medication to help her uterus contract.
* The mother may have problems with blood clotting for a few days.
* If the mother's blood does not clot (particularly during a caesarean section) and too many transfusions could put the mother into disseminated intravascular coagulation (DIC) due to increased thromboplastin, the doctor may consider a hysterectomy.
* A severe case of shock may affect other organs, such as the liver, kidney, and pituitary gland. Diffuse cortical necrosis in the kidney is a serious and often fatal complication.
* In some cases where the abruption is high up in the uterus, or is slight, there is no bleeding, though extreme pain is felt and reported.
On the baby:
* If a large amount of the placenta separates from the uterus, the baby will probably be in distress until delivery and may die in utero, thus resulting in a stillbirth.
* The baby may be premature and need to be placed in the newborn intensive care unit. He or she might have problems with breathing and feeding.
* If the baby is in distress in the uterus, he or she may have a low level of oxygen in the blood after birth.
* The newborn may have low blood pressure or a low blood count.
* If the separation is severe enough, the baby could suffer brain damage or die before or shortly after birth.
[edit] Symptoms
* contractions that don't stop (and may follow one another so rapidly as to seem continuous)
* pain in the uterus
* tenderness in the abdomen
* vaginal bleeding (sometimes)
(dark colour)
* uterus may be disproportionately enlarged
* pallor
[edit] Pathophysiology
Trauma, hypertension, or coagulopathy contributes to the avulsion of the anchoring placental villi from the expanding lower uterine segment, which in turn, leads to bleeding into the decidua basalis. This can push the placenta away from the uterus and cause further bleeding. Bleeding through the vagina, called overt or external bleeding, occurs 80% of the time, though sometimes the blood will pool behind the placenta, known as concealed or internal placental abruption.
Women may present with vaginal bleeding, abdominal or back pain, abnormal or premature contractions, fetal distress or death.
Abruptions are classified according to severity in the following manner:
* Grade 0: Asymptomatic and only diagnosed through post partum examination of the placenta.
* Grade 1: The mother may have vaginal bleeding with mild uterine tenderness or tetany, but there is no distress of mother or fetus.
* Grade 2: The mother is symptomatic but not in shock. There is some evidence of fetal distress can be found with fetal heart rate monitoring.
* Grade 3: Severe bleeding (which may be occult) leads to maternal shock and fetal death. There may be maternal disseminated intravascular coagulation. Blood may force its way through the uterine wall into the serosa, a condition known as Couvelaire uterus.
[edit] Risk factors
* Maternal hypertension is a factor in 44% of all abruptions.
* Maternal trauma, such as motor vehicle accidents, assaults, falls, or nosocomial
* Short umbilical cord
* Prolonged rupture of membranes (>24 hours)
* Retroplacental fibromyoma
* Maternal age: pregnant women who are younger than 20 or older than 35 are at greater risk.
* Previous abruption: Women who have had an abruption in previous pregnancies are at greater risk.
* some infections are also diagnosed as a cause
* cocaine intoxication [2]
* cigarette smoking[3]
The risk of placental abruption can be reduced by maintaining a good diet including taking folic acid, regular sleep patterns and correction of pregnancy-induced hypertension.
[edit] Intervention
Placental abruption is suspected when a pregnant mother has sudden localized abdominal pain with or without bleeding. The fundus may be monitored because a rising fundus can indicate bleeding. An ultrasound may be used to rule out placenta praevia but is not diagnostic for abruption. The mother may be given Rhogam if she is Rh negative.
Treatment depends on the amount of blood loss and the status of the fetus. If the fetus is less than 36 weeks and neither mother or fetus are in any distress, then they may simply be monitored in hospital until a change in condition or fetal maturity whichever comes first.
Immediate delivery of the fetus may be indicated if the fetus is mature or if the fetus or mother are in distress. Blood volume replacement and to maintain blood pressure and blood plasma replacement to maintain fibrinogen levels may be needed. Vaginal birth is usually preferred over caesarean section unless there is fetal distress. Caesarean section is contraindicated in cases of disseminated intravascular coagulation. Patient should be monitored for 7 days for PPH. Excessive bleeding from uterus may necessitate hysterectomy if family size is completed.
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Jump to:navigation, search
Placental abruption
Classification and external resources
ICD-10 O45.
ICD-9 641.2
DiseasesDB 40
MedlinePlus 000901
eMedicine med/6 emerg/12
MeSH D000037
Placental abruption (also known as abruptio placentae) is an obstetric catastrophe (complication of pregnancy), wherein the placental lining has separated from the uterus of the mother. It is the most common cause of late pregnancy bleeding. In humans, it refers to the abnormal separation after 20 weeks of gestation and prior to birth. It occurs in 1% of pregnancies world wide with a fetal mortality rate of 20-40% depending on the degree of separation. Placental abruption is also a significant contributor to maternal mortality. Many women can die from this type of abnormality.
The heart rate of the fetus can be associated with the severity.[1]
Contents
[hide]
* 1 Lasting effects
* 2 Symptoms
* 3 Pathophysiology
* 4 Risk factors
* 5 Intervention
* 6 References
* 7 External links
[edit] Lasting effects
On the mother:
* A large loss of blood or hemorrhage may require blood transfusions and intensive care after delivery. 'APH weakens, for PPH to kill'.
* The uterus may not contract properly after delivery so the mother may need medication to help her uterus contract.
* The mother may have problems with blood clotting for a few days.
* If the mother's blood does not clot (particularly during a caesarean section) and too many transfusions could put the mother into disseminated intravascular coagulation (DIC) due to increased thromboplastin, the doctor may consider a hysterectomy.
* A severe case of shock may affect other organs, such as the liver, kidney, and pituitary gland. Diffuse cortical necrosis in the kidney is a serious and often fatal complication.
* In some cases where the abruption is high up in the uterus, or is slight, there is no bleeding, though extreme pain is felt and reported.
On the baby:
* If a large amount of the placenta separates from the uterus, the baby will probably be in distress until delivery and may die in utero, thus resulting in a stillbirth.
* The baby may be premature and need to be placed in the newborn intensive care unit. He or she might have problems with breathing and feeding.
* If the baby is in distress in the uterus, he or she may have a low level of oxygen in the blood after birth.
* The newborn may have low blood pressure or a low blood count.
* If the separation is severe enough, the baby could suffer brain damage or die before or shortly after birth.
[edit] Symptoms
* contractions that don't stop (and may follow one another so rapidly as to seem continuous)
* pain in the uterus
* tenderness in the abdomen
* vaginal bleeding (sometimes)
(dark colour)
* uterus may be disproportionately enlarged
* pallor
[edit] Pathophysiology
Trauma, hypertension, or coagulopathy contributes to the avulsion of the anchoring placental villi from the expanding lower uterine segment, which in turn, leads to bleeding into the decidua basalis. This can push the placenta away from the uterus and cause further bleeding. Bleeding through the vagina, called overt or external bleeding, occurs 80% of the time, though sometimes the blood will pool behind the placenta, known as concealed or internal placental abruption.
Women may present with vaginal bleeding, abdominal or back pain, abnormal or premature contractions, fetal distress or death.
Abruptions are classified according to severity in the following manner:
* Grade 0: Asymptomatic and only diagnosed through post partum examination of the placenta.
* Grade 1: The mother may have vaginal bleeding with mild uterine tenderness or tetany, but there is no distress of mother or fetus.
* Grade 2: The mother is symptomatic but not in shock. There is some evidence of fetal distress can be found with fetal heart rate monitoring.
* Grade 3: Severe bleeding (which may be occult) leads to maternal shock and fetal death. There may be maternal disseminated intravascular coagulation. Blood may force its way through the uterine wall into the serosa, a condition known as Couvelaire uterus.
[edit] Risk factors
* Maternal hypertension is a factor in 44% of all abruptions.
* Maternal trauma, such as motor vehicle accidents, assaults, falls, or nosocomial
* Short umbilical cord
* Prolonged rupture of membranes (>24 hours)
* Retroplacental fibromyoma
* Maternal age: pregnant women who are younger than 20 or older than 35 are at greater risk.
* Previous abruption: Women who have had an abruption in previous pregnancies are at greater risk.
* some infections are also diagnosed as a cause
* cocaine intoxication [2]
* cigarette smoking[3]
The risk of placental abruption can be reduced by maintaining a good diet including taking folic acid, regular sleep patterns and correction of pregnancy-induced hypertension.
[edit] Intervention
Placental abruption is suspected when a pregnant mother has sudden localized abdominal pain with or without bleeding. The fundus may be monitored because a rising fundus can indicate bleeding. An ultrasound may be used to rule out placenta praevia but is not diagnostic for abruption. The mother may be given Rhogam if she is Rh negative.
Treatment depends on the amount of blood loss and the status of the fetus. If the fetus is less than 36 weeks and neither mother or fetus are in any distress, then they may simply be monitored in hospital until a change in condition or fetal maturity whichever comes first.
Immediate delivery of the fetus may be indicated if the fetus is mature or if the fetus or mother are in distress. Blood volume replacement and to maintain blood pressure and blood plasma replacement to maintain fibrinogen levels may be needed. Vaginal birth is usually preferred over caesarean section unless there is fetal distress. Caesarean section is contraindicated in cases of disseminated intravascular coagulation. Patient should be monitored for 7 days for PPH. Excessive bleeding from uterus may necessitate hysterectomy if family size is completed.
Leaving comments
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if you would like to comment on something and it wont let you leave one
feel free to inbox me on facebook with the blog title in the subject and leave you comment there
if you would like to comment on something and it wont let you leave one
feel free to inbox me on facebook with the blog title in the subject and leave you comment there
2 months
Deacan is now 2 months old,
For a 2 month old *2 weeks corrected* he seems to have really good head control he already holds his head up and looks around,
I have to take him into the doctor soon to get his 2 month old needles, i am also going ot see the doctor about getting some boosters for myself so i dont get sick or pass anything on
For a 2 month old *2 weeks corrected* he seems to have really good head control he already holds his head up and looks around,
I have to take him into the doctor soon to get his 2 month old needles, i am also going ot see the doctor about getting some boosters for myself so i dont get sick or pass anything on
What am i doing wrong?
I just cant seem to get ahead, i feel like deacan doesnt like me or doesnt have a bond with me,
he is really moody all the time, i cant seem to settle him, though he will settle for anyone else
does he hate me? does he not want me as him mum? have i dont something wrong?
i really really try not to loose my cool with him though when he just cries and cries and cries for no reason what so ever it really gets to me,
I try everything to settle him,
i change his nappy, his outfit, give him a very warm bottle, i hold him, i burp him i play with him, i talk to him,
And yet most of the time he just wont settle,
what am i doing wrong????
He sleeps during the day when he is settled though when it comes to nihgt he is a compleatly different person, he cries grunts groans, and wont sleep and if he wont sleep he cries non stop so i cant sleep either,
i dont know if its because i am sleeps deprived or have a touch of baby blues, though i really cant handle it
his cries are now getting to me like finger nails on a chalk board,
some times i can feel i am getting that angry my hands are starting to shake, and when that happends i am not game to pick him up or go near him, does that make me a bad mum?
I really dont mean to get so angry at him,
most days i jsut want to sit and cry, as i wonder wha ti have done so wrong to him, for him to be like htis towards me
Everytime i take him out he is a little angel, i take him to my dads and he is fine doesnt play up once... so it makes me look like im making it all up...
i dont remember it being this hard with Jason, and Jason was a very demanding baby,
Poor Deacan has now made me swear off having any more children, as i know i am not going to be able to cope,
and that really upsets me as i would of possibly liked to have one more a good few years down the track though now i dont want to have any more full stop,
please tell me this is jsut a phase he is going through, and he will grow out of it...
he is really moody all the time, i cant seem to settle him, though he will settle for anyone else
does he hate me? does he not want me as him mum? have i dont something wrong?
i really really try not to loose my cool with him though when he just cries and cries and cries for no reason what so ever it really gets to me,
I try everything to settle him,
i change his nappy, his outfit, give him a very warm bottle, i hold him, i burp him i play with him, i talk to him,
And yet most of the time he just wont settle,
what am i doing wrong????
He sleeps during the day when he is settled though when it comes to nihgt he is a compleatly different person, he cries grunts groans, and wont sleep and if he wont sleep he cries non stop so i cant sleep either,
i dont know if its because i am sleeps deprived or have a touch of baby blues, though i really cant handle it
his cries are now getting to me like finger nails on a chalk board,
some times i can feel i am getting that angry my hands are starting to shake, and when that happends i am not game to pick him up or go near him, does that make me a bad mum?
I really dont mean to get so angry at him,
most days i jsut want to sit and cry, as i wonder wha ti have done so wrong to him, for him to be like htis towards me
Everytime i take him out he is a little angel, i take him to my dads and he is fine doesnt play up once... so it makes me look like im making it all up...
i dont remember it being this hard with Jason, and Jason was a very demanding baby,
Poor Deacan has now made me swear off having any more children, as i know i am not going to be able to cope,
and that really upsets me as i would of possibly liked to have one more a good few years down the track though now i dont want to have any more full stop,
please tell me this is jsut a phase he is going through, and he will grow out of it...
Sunday, May 23, 2010
What a long 2 days
these past 2 days have felt like weeks and weeks,
things are really getting me down,
I just seem to be really tired all the time,it doesnt matter how much/little sleep i get im always tired
maybe i should go to the doctor and and get all my levels checked to make sure i am not lacking anything
dont think i have gone to well in my whole mission to gain weight as with deacan being to fussy and not settleing and jason just beig on the move i have not really had time to eat as much as i normaly should have, so i guess the weight has gone down
kinda really peeved in that though, as i am really wanting to gain weight,
they has to be some easy solution in gaining weight
things are really getting me down,
I just seem to be really tired all the time,it doesnt matter how much/little sleep i get im always tired
maybe i should go to the doctor and and get all my levels checked to make sure i am not lacking anything
dont think i have gone to well in my whole mission to gain weight as with deacan being to fussy and not settleing and jason just beig on the move i have not really had time to eat as much as i normaly should have, so i guess the weight has gone down
kinda really peeved in that though, as i am really wanting to gain weight,
they has to be some easy solution in gaining weight
Friday, May 21, 2010
Not Easy
I dont see how people can tell me i am so lucky to be skinny, its not like i choose to be skinny,
I made myself like this years ago and now i have to deal with it,
Its a massive struggle, i have been battleing with Anorexia for about 5 or see years now, also when i first was diognosed with it i was also told i had belima as well, Its not like i choose to be like this any more, the first year was hard as i didnt think that i was sick so my body took a very big battering with it, though now i try and try to get my weight up and eat right and eat what ever i can though its just not working,
i hate it when people tell me i am so lucky, or what diet are you on i should try that, or im so jealouse,
jealouse of what> having your bones show? not having energy to keep up with everyone? having not that much body fat your heart misses beats?
I made myself like this years ago and now i have to deal with it,
Its a massive struggle, i have been battleing with Anorexia for about 5 or see years now, also when i first was diognosed with it i was also told i had belima as well, Its not like i choose to be like this any more, the first year was hard as i didnt think that i was sick so my body took a very big battering with it, though now i try and try to get my weight up and eat right and eat what ever i can though its just not working,
i hate it when people tell me i am so lucky, or what diet are you on i should try that, or im so jealouse,
jealouse of what> having your bones show? not having energy to keep up with everyone? having not that much body fat your heart misses beats?
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Over stepping
how do you know if a friend or family memeber have over stepped the mark?
i know there is a thin line though how do ou know if they have crossed it or not
i know there is a thin line though how do ou know if they have crossed it or not
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Spreading the love
I would like to spread the love to Jess Richardson
She has been a great friend, through out everything that i have been through, she has given me the support that i needed when we lost our son Bryce, also the support and love that was needed when our outher son Jason was born at 25 weeks and was touch and go,
You can always count of jess to brighten up your day or give you much needed advise when needed, you also know that she speaks from the heart, and you know what she says is the truth, and she tells you how it is whe it is,
Your a great firend jess and you make the world a better place just from being here
http://spreadlovetoday.blogspot.com/
She has been a great friend, through out everything that i have been through, she has given me the support that i needed when we lost our son Bryce, also the support and love that was needed when our outher son Jason was born at 25 weeks and was touch and go,
You can always count of jess to brighten up your day or give you much needed advise when needed, you also know that she speaks from the heart, and you know what she says is the truth, and she tells you how it is whe it is,
Your a great firend jess and you make the world a better place just from being here
http://spreadlovetoday.blogspot.com/
Monday, May 17, 2010
vivid dreams
the past couple of night i have been having really vivid dream, some are just really strange and other wake me up and really get me thinking,
Does anyone know wha they are ment to mean?
Does anyone know wha they are ment to mean?
Sippy Cup
I'm trying to get Jason onto a sippy cup so he will be off bottles, though i am having no luck
I have tryed different types of sippy cups, different brands etc,
though all he wants to do with them is play with them,
does anyone have any tips on how i am able to get him on sippy cups?
I have tryed different types of sippy cups, different brands etc,
though all he wants to do with them is play with them,
does anyone have any tips on how i am able to get him on sippy cups?
Weight Gain Week 1
ok so i really need to start gaining weight, as it has started to drop here is what we have to start with
Starting weight 45kgs
everyday ill post what i have had to eat as well, and once or twice a week ill post what my weight is
Starting weight 45kgs
everyday ill post what i have had to eat as well, and once or twice a week ill post what my weight is
I Wish
I WISH i knew what to say
to make all the pain just go away
I WISH i knew what was happening
before it all happend
I WISH i knew now
what i knew then
I WISH i held you for longer
instead of pushinig you away
I WISH i looked in to your eyes
and said i love you more times than i did
I WISH you were here now,
and not just in my dreams
I WISH you were here now
so you could be apart of our family even more
I WISH i had the strength
to take your brother down to meet you
I WISH i had the courage
to make every day hurt less
I WISH you was here now,
instead ill close my eyes
and see you there
to make all the pain just go away
I WISH i knew what was happening
before it all happend
I WISH i knew now
what i knew then
I WISH i held you for longer
instead of pushinig you away
I WISH i looked in to your eyes
and said i love you more times than i did
I WISH you were here now,
and not just in my dreams
I WISH you were here now
so you could be apart of our family even more
I WISH i had the strength
to take your brother down to meet you
I WISH i had the courage
to make every day hurt less
I WISH you was here now,
instead ill close my eyes
and see you there
How long to greive?
What is the time limit on greiving?
Is there such a thing?
What happends if your not ready to let that person go?
I am over people saying that i should just let my son rest in peace, or that i should move on, or come to terms with it,
what happends if i dont want to?
What if i want to share his memory with other mums or dad that have lost loved ones? just because my son passed away doesnt me i cant talk about him,
i dont want to forget him
i dont want other people to forget him :(
I like to talk about him, Bryce is apart of me, and also he has gone and taken a piece of me with him doesnt mean i have to stop talking about him or sharing his memory,
It has only been just over 2 years since he was taken away, im not ready to let go, i have come to terms with it and that there is nothing i can do to change the situation, though im not letting go, and i will always talk about him
Is there such a thing?
What happends if your not ready to let that person go?
I am over people saying that i should just let my son rest in peace, or that i should move on, or come to terms with it,
what happends if i dont want to?
What if i want to share his memory with other mums or dad that have lost loved ones? just because my son passed away doesnt me i cant talk about him,
i dont want to forget him
i dont want other people to forget him :(
I like to talk about him, Bryce is apart of me, and also he has gone and taken a piece of me with him doesnt mean i have to stop talking about him or sharing his memory,
It has only been just over 2 years since he was taken away, im not ready to let go, i have come to terms with it and that there is nothing i can do to change the situation, though im not letting go, and i will always talk about him
Sunday, May 16, 2010
What to do?
Im so lost with what to do,
im just so tired all the time i cant keep up to the boys, Deacan is having problems sleeping and i have no idea why, and Jason is jsut so full of energy,
I really feel like i am running on empty, everything is really taking its tolls,
Daniel has been great, he has also been very understanding and he is helping out a lot, even if its just feeding Deacan once during the day/night so i can have a break or a sleep, he is also helping around the house a lot more to and its good cos im not the one who has to do everything,
I have been trying to do everything to show daniel that i have changed and that i can keep up to all the house work, though im just not finding the energy, im tired all the time, im loosing more weight, as i am busy looking after the kids and just forget to eat,
I need to start getting my weight up againj so every day i am going to do a food diary now, and weigh myself either once or twice a week as well,
im just so tired all the time i cant keep up to the boys, Deacan is having problems sleeping and i have no idea why, and Jason is jsut so full of energy,
I really feel like i am running on empty, everything is really taking its tolls,
Daniel has been great, he has also been very understanding and he is helping out a lot, even if its just feeding Deacan once during the day/night so i can have a break or a sleep, he is also helping around the house a lot more to and its good cos im not the one who has to do everything,
I have been trying to do everything to show daniel that i have changed and that i can keep up to all the house work, though im just not finding the energy, im tired all the time, im loosing more weight, as i am busy looking after the kids and just forget to eat,
I need to start getting my weight up againj so every day i am going to do a food diary now, and weigh myself either once or twice a week as well,
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Bitten of more than i can chew???
Things jsut dont seem as easy as i thought they were going to be...
I'm finding it very hard to find the time to do anything these days, let alone the energy to keep up,
It seems like i am forever doing house work it never ends, there is atleast 1 load of washing to do everyday sometimes up to 3, also with ribbish making sure the house is empy of rubbish, i am doing bottles twices a day (cleaning and steralizing) sometimes i have to do them 3 times a day depending on how much deacan wants to drink,
Also trying to keep it all tidy, and making sure there is nothing on the ground that Jason can get his hands on, and then got to try and find time to unpack,
i get stuck into the house work though once i have done a lot you cant even tell i have done anything at all,
then dependig on the night i have had with boys will depend on how much i will do, if i have had a bad night i dont do to much just the dishers and the bottles, then try and do little bits and pieces when i can and when both of them are napping i try to have one as well, thugh if they have given me a good night i get stuck right into it,
Its jsut never ending,
I dont have time to do anything any more, i dont even have time to scratch my butt let alone having a life, like dont get me wrong i love both my both to pieces and wouldnt give them up for anything or change anything, just sometimes it would be good to have some "me " time even if its only to have a bubble bath or to go for a walk or jsut something,
I have noticed that they dont class being a house wife or a stay at home mum a job, they really need to, as being a mum is a 24/7 job, its never ending, not even when they are sleeping as then either you are listening to them to make sure they are ok, or you are catching up on cleaning
My hat really goes off to mums who look after their children then also hold down a job, i dont think i could go back to work right at the moment as i am just to tired, though i will be returning back once i feel right placing deacan in day care, though at the moment he is just a little bit to young/small to,
I'm finding it very hard to find the time to do anything these days, let alone the energy to keep up,
It seems like i am forever doing house work it never ends, there is atleast 1 load of washing to do everyday sometimes up to 3, also with ribbish making sure the house is empy of rubbish, i am doing bottles twices a day (cleaning and steralizing) sometimes i have to do them 3 times a day depending on how much deacan wants to drink,
Also trying to keep it all tidy, and making sure there is nothing on the ground that Jason can get his hands on, and then got to try and find time to unpack,
i get stuck into the house work though once i have done a lot you cant even tell i have done anything at all,
then dependig on the night i have had with boys will depend on how much i will do, if i have had a bad night i dont do to much just the dishers and the bottles, then try and do little bits and pieces when i can and when both of them are napping i try to have one as well, thugh if they have given me a good night i get stuck right into it,
Its jsut never ending,
I dont have time to do anything any more, i dont even have time to scratch my butt let alone having a life, like dont get me wrong i love both my both to pieces and wouldnt give them up for anything or change anything, just sometimes it would be good to have some "me " time even if its only to have a bubble bath or to go for a walk or jsut something,
I have noticed that they dont class being a house wife or a stay at home mum a job, they really need to, as being a mum is a 24/7 job, its never ending, not even when they are sleeping as then either you are listening to them to make sure they are ok, or you are catching up on cleaning
My hat really goes off to mums who look after their children then also hold down a job, i dont think i could go back to work right at the moment as i am just to tired, though i will be returning back once i feel right placing deacan in day care, though at the moment he is just a little bit to young/small to,
Monday, May 10, 2010
Worried about my nan
OK so i am really worried about my nan, i know that she is sick though she wont say just how sick, Nan is the type of person that would do anything for anyone with out asking for anyone in return, also is always busy helping out others,
She had a whole heap of tests done at the doctors, and they have called her back as by the looks of it something has shown up,
i REALLY hope that there is nothing wrong and they are just calling her back to say one of her vitamin levels are low
She had a whole heap of tests done at the doctors, and they have called her back as by the looks of it something has shown up,
i REALLY hope that there is nothing wrong and they are just calling her back to say one of her vitamin levels are low
My blog is my blog
This space is mine and mine alone, i don't see why i should have to justify what i write in here or censor it, I write in here what is on my mind when it is and how it is, if people don't like it then don't read it,
this space is my way of clearing my head, I'm not writing it to entertain anyone, this is a place where i can get things off my chest, write down my hopes and dreams, my let down and my feelings, also a place where i can keep track of what is going on,
this space is my way of clearing my head, I'm not writing it to entertain anyone, this is a place where i can get things off my chest, write down my hopes and dreams, my let down and my feelings, also a place where i can keep track of what is going on,
Gadgets
I need to add more gadgets onto here though im not to sure how to, i want to add tickers for all boys and daniel and I though im not to sure how it will look, or what to add i want to change it all around so it doesnt look boring I guess ill play around with it and add more when and where i can :)
Not a good night
Well we didnt have a good night last night, both boys finaly went to slep with out a problem, though kept waking up during hte night,
Deacan woke up at 12.30, then 3.30 and didnt go back down till 4, Jason woke up a few times during the night, though at 4am he woke up screaming so i took him in a new bottle he settled down, then the alarm went off at 6am and jason started again
Daniel said that he would take his bottles that were in his bed, im guessing they are just cold
though Jason now has a snotty nose and a pretty bad cough, so we are putting it down to teething plus his top gum is all swollen, i know that he is getting his 2 top teeth at once, so i have ben putting bonjela on them and also keeping up with nurifen,
Deacan woke up at 12.30, then 3.30 and didnt go back down till 4, Jason woke up a few times during the night, though at 4am he woke up screaming so i took him in a new bottle he settled down, then the alarm went off at 6am and jason started again
Daniel said that he would take his bottles that were in his bed, im guessing they are just cold
though Jason now has a snotty nose and a pretty bad cough, so we are putting it down to teething plus his top gum is all swollen, i know that he is getting his 2 top teeth at once, so i have ben putting bonjela on them and also keeping up with nurifen,
Sunday, May 9, 2010
The nerve of some people
Im just so over people, the nerve of them,
im over people who DONT have children, have never cared for children try and tell me how to raise mine, or what i should be doing with my kids, or how my time should be spent, like bloody hell what would you know, like telling me if i was really looking after my children i would have time to do anything, um... last time i checked kids to have naps during the day ( not all kids though mine do) and also i can do stuff (House work) while they are up i dont have to have my eyes on them 24/7
incase anyone is wondering no its not directed at any of my friends. that read this its aimed at someone else, just becuase my dad wrote a poem on my nans facebook page, like i have to admitte its not the best one i have ever heard thoguh he really tried with it, though yet someone had to post some uptight, nasty comment on it really shooting my dad down, so i stood up for my dad and said that his poem was really thoughtful then he sharted with his shit, mind you this is all on my nans facebook page, cutting a long story short i told him if he wanted to continue the argument to do it to my inbox as my nan didnt need to read this crap, so then he sent a very nasty email i have coppied and posted it below though i have taken out the names
May 6 at 6:22pm Report
Where the fuck do you get off Sarah, I think you are a very self centred self rightous scum of the earth welfare sucking bitch, every time I say something you have to say something stupid , as far as you working on looking after you house, its a joke , I can safely say that if you look around yourself, maybe go into your kitchen and look around, I will bet the garbage is piling up and the washing wouldnt be done unless Danial had done it. I know You will deny it , you looking after the kids would have taken all day but honestly we both know. dont we. Be honest with your self if noone else
Sarah Maree Atkinson May 6 at 6:35pm
right..... if you think so, tell me this how can i work with a new born baby? a new born baby needs looking after, what you said on dads post to nan was bloody nasty if anything there was no need to shoot him down like you did, it was sweet with what he wrote, he was trying to do something nice for nan as she is quite sick, or didnt you think of that, and with the fucking house work what the hell would you know, washing isnt building up and there isnt rubbish all over the place, so where the fuck do you get off? and looking after the kids doesnt take all day thankyou they have naps during the day and i can still do stuff when they are up, so before you start joring your mouth off get your fucking facts straight, and i am a welfair sucking bitch answer me this, how the fuck am i able to pay rent, raise a child and now children when i do not work and i am by myself? the only reason i am on "welfair" is because my kids need to eat, so why dont you get off your high fucking hore and jsut grow up
im over people who DONT have children, have never cared for children try and tell me how to raise mine, or what i should be doing with my kids, or how my time should be spent, like bloody hell what would you know, like telling me if i was really looking after my children i would have time to do anything, um... last time i checked kids to have naps during the day ( not all kids though mine do) and also i can do stuff (House work) while they are up i dont have to have my eyes on them 24/7
incase anyone is wondering no its not directed at any of my friends. that read this its aimed at someone else, just becuase my dad wrote a poem on my nans facebook page, like i have to admitte its not the best one i have ever heard thoguh he really tried with it, though yet someone had to post some uptight, nasty comment on it really shooting my dad down, so i stood up for my dad and said that his poem was really thoughtful then he sharted with his shit, mind you this is all on my nans facebook page, cutting a long story short i told him if he wanted to continue the argument to do it to my inbox as my nan didnt need to read this crap, so then he sent a very nasty email i have coppied and posted it below though i have taken out the names
May 6 at 6:22pm Report
Where the fuck do you get off Sarah, I think you are a very self centred self rightous scum of the earth welfare sucking bitch, every time I say something you have to say something stupid , as far as you working on looking after you house, its a joke , I can safely say that if you look around yourself, maybe go into your kitchen and look around, I will bet the garbage is piling up and the washing wouldnt be done unless Danial had done it. I know You will deny it , you looking after the kids would have taken all day but honestly we both know. dont we. Be honest with your self if noone else
Sarah Maree Atkinson May 6 at 6:35pm
right..... if you think so, tell me this how can i work with a new born baby? a new born baby needs looking after, what you said on dads post to nan was bloody nasty if anything there was no need to shoot him down like you did, it was sweet with what he wrote, he was trying to do something nice for nan as she is quite sick, or didnt you think of that, and with the fucking house work what the hell would you know, washing isnt building up and there isnt rubbish all over the place, so where the fuck do you get off? and looking after the kids doesnt take all day thankyou they have naps during the day and i can still do stuff when they are up, so before you start joring your mouth off get your fucking facts straight, and i am a welfair sucking bitch answer me this, how the fuck am i able to pay rent, raise a child and now children when i do not work and i am by myself? the only reason i am on "welfair" is because my kids need to eat, so why dont you get off your high fucking hore and jsut grow up
like bloody hell where does ....... get off,
oh i would also like to thank everyone who asked for updates on deacan as well it really ment alot to daniel and i,
im quite pissed off with my mother at the moment, for one she is compleatly ignoring me, secodnly she never once asked me for an update on deacan even once i told her it was touch and go and that there was a very good chance we could loose him, now she isnt answering any sms messages i am sending her, nor phones calls, or anyhting on facebook that i am sending her,
im so over all this shit i dont need it in my life,
from now on ANYONE who is going to be like this can just stuff off, i no longer need this shit in my life any more, my husband and children are the most important things in my life at the moment and if that doesnt suit anyone then theres the door feel free to use it
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Kym
a close friend of mine has pass away her name was Kym, she has only just turned 27, she has 4 children ranging from 5 to 1 month old
Kym had a stroke about 2 weeks ago due to surgery, she had a blood clot that was 15 cm long that went from her right overay to her liver, and a piece of that had broken off and went to her brain, 6 days ago they turned off all of her life support, she lasted 5 days all on her own, even though her breathing was shallow though Kym being Kym had to do things in her own time not the doctors,
SHe was a really good friend and will be dearly missed
Rest in peace kym, spread your wings and sore over us all, may you watch down over your family and keep them safe
you will be forever loved and deeply missed
Kym had a stroke about 2 weeks ago due to surgery, she had a blood clot that was 15 cm long that went from her right overay to her liver, and a piece of that had broken off and went to her brain, 6 days ago they turned off all of her life support, she lasted 5 days all on her own, even though her breathing was shallow though Kym being Kym had to do things in her own time not the doctors,
SHe was a really good friend and will be dearly missed
Rest in peace kym, spread your wings and sore over us all, may you watch down over your family and keep them safe
you will be forever loved and deeply missed
Mothers Day
Happy Mothers Day
I just wanted to say Happy mothers day to all you mums out there, i hope your children spoil the hell out of you, and if you dont have children there with you, i hope they shine down from above and brighten up you day and fill it with warmth :)
I just wanted to say Happy mothers day to all you mums out there, i hope your children spoil the hell out of you, and if you dont have children there with you, i hope they shine down from above and brighten up you day and fill it with warmth :)
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Feeling let down and bad
i just dont feel myself latley
to much is going on and i just cant keep a handle on it,
i cant seem to keep up with all the house work, part of the reason is i am jsut so tired all the time i can barley keep my eyes open,
im stressed off my tree, with Deacan being in hospital like yeah he is getting alot better, he is now up on the ward andon 3 hourly feeds, they will be starting to do oral feeds again sometime today and they said hopefully we should be able to bring him home by the weekend
Im trying to clean out the unit and move everything though jsut cant seem to get motivated to do as there is alot to move and pack and only have a week realy to do it in as i cant do anything when i jave jason home from daycare
with the illness that the boys have had they have given it to both daniel and I, daniel has seem to of come right though i jsut cant seem to shake it i have really bad sinus headackes my jaw hurts and when ever something cold hits me my whole body hurts
i feel like i am letting daniel down as a wife as im not keeping up with the house work, i havent cooked tea the past couple of night daniel has, tea should be on cooking when daniel gets home its not fair that he works a hard 8 to 10 hour day then has to cook and so forth, and i have been that tired and sore and everything im just not up for naughty time now,
Im worried about my firend Kym that is only just hanging on, i dont want to loose her, i feel so much pain and hurt for her family and just dont know what to say to them
everything just feels so much at the moment it feels like i have the whole world on my shoulders, i know there is so many more people out there worst off than me, though all i want to do at the moment is cry and curl up in a black hole,
Jason is just constantly on the move now he is getting into everything and trashing everything he touches, i know its part of having kids lol thouh i just cant seem to keep up with him any more
i dont know whats gotten into me i guess i just needed to have a windge
to much is going on and i just cant keep a handle on it,
i cant seem to keep up with all the house work, part of the reason is i am jsut so tired all the time i can barley keep my eyes open,
im stressed off my tree, with Deacan being in hospital like yeah he is getting alot better, he is now up on the ward andon 3 hourly feeds, they will be starting to do oral feeds again sometime today and they said hopefully we should be able to bring him home by the weekend
Im trying to clean out the unit and move everything though jsut cant seem to get motivated to do as there is alot to move and pack and only have a week realy to do it in as i cant do anything when i jave jason home from daycare
with the illness that the boys have had they have given it to both daniel and I, daniel has seem to of come right though i jsut cant seem to shake it i have really bad sinus headackes my jaw hurts and when ever something cold hits me my whole body hurts
i feel like i am letting daniel down as a wife as im not keeping up with the house work, i havent cooked tea the past couple of night daniel has, tea should be on cooking when daniel gets home its not fair that he works a hard 8 to 10 hour day then has to cook and so forth, and i have been that tired and sore and everything im just not up for naughty time now,
Im worried about my firend Kym that is only just hanging on, i dont want to loose her, i feel so much pain and hurt for her family and just dont know what to say to them
everything just feels so much at the moment it feels like i have the whole world on my shoulders, i know there is so many more people out there worst off than me, though all i want to do at the moment is cry and curl up in a black hole,
Jason is just constantly on the move now he is getting into everything and trashing everything he touches, i know its part of having kids lol thouh i just cant seem to keep up with him any more
i dont know whats gotten into me i guess i just needed to have a windge
so the bleeding is at lot worser today :( and very painful,
going to take some pain killers for it think today
daniel didnt say to much last night when he got home from work, i know he was in shock as well as we both thought how could this of happend also so soon after the birth of Deacan and from only doing the dirty 3 times in jsut under 2 months.....
going to take some pain killers for it think today
daniel didnt say to much last night when he got home from work, i know he was in shock as well as we both thought how could this of happend also so soon after the birth of Deacan and from only doing the dirty 3 times in jsut under 2 months.....
Why???
Why am i finding this so hard to deal with?
why is it hurting me for?
I didnt even know i was pregnent, like i thought something was up as my last period was only a very light bleed that didnt even last for a day then i spotted for 2 days after, i started to get some pretty bad cramps today and started spotting like 2 days ago, and im not due for my next period for about like 2 weeks so i went a brought a test i dont knwo what made me think to buy it as daniel and i hae been careful, and yeah when i went to do the test my pad was full of blood and there was a good sized clott in it, so i thought why not jsut do the test any way and there was a faint line there.......
so im guessing i was pregnent though i have misscarried.....
we wasnt even trying for another baby and to be quite honest i dont want to have any more kids i am blessed with my 3 boys....
so why am i finding thi is hurting me for???
why is it hurting me for?
I didnt even know i was pregnent, like i thought something was up as my last period was only a very light bleed that didnt even last for a day then i spotted for 2 days after, i started to get some pretty bad cramps today and started spotting like 2 days ago, and im not due for my next period for about like 2 weeks so i went a brought a test i dont knwo what made me think to buy it as daniel and i hae been careful, and yeah when i went to do the test my pad was full of blood and there was a good sized clott in it, so i thought why not jsut do the test any way and there was a faint line there.......
so im guessing i was pregnent though i have misscarried.....
we wasnt even trying for another baby and to be quite honest i dont want to have any more kids i am blessed with my 3 boys....
so why am i finding thi is hurting me for???
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
Things have been hectick
So things have been very hectick for us
first off
Deacan
He is still in hospital, still very sick, they gave him a blood transfusion yesterday and so far so good, they are planning on taking him off the ventolator sometime today, he has been on the ventolator since friday, i am hoping to hell he doesnt get any lung damage from it, they said that there is a chance that he will get damage from it.... his infection seems to be clearing now, though its still up to him when he wants to get better below is a photo that was taken friday night
Jason
Jason is just coming along in leaps and bounds, we are so proud of him :) his talking is getting alot better, also now he is very mobile he doesnt quite crawl crawl at the moment though he commando styles every where also it isnt going to be long now before he is walking :)
Jason now sits him self up as well also
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