i just cant do this any more..... im sick of all the crap and the not knowing.... and all the stressing over it... i have one little man who's in hospital until he gets big enough to com home, and i have another little man who is growing up so fast, they should be the ones who get all my attention.....
though my main point of focus at the moment is wondering if we still have a ffamily.... should i even keep trying??? it feels like im trying to get blood out of a stone..... how can so much in 2 years be counted as nothing.......
im ment to be up at the hospital doing breastfeeding for every feed though i cant be up there for all of them cos i have no one to watch jason.....
i never knew being a single mum was so hard,
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