Things jsut dont seem as easy as i thought they were going to be...
I'm finding it very hard to find the time to do anything these days, let alone the energy to keep up,
It seems like i am forever doing house work it never ends, there is atleast 1 load of washing to do everyday sometimes up to 3, also with ribbish making sure the house is empy of rubbish, i am doing bottles twices a day (cleaning and steralizing) sometimes i have to do them 3 times a day depending on how much deacan wants to drink,
Also trying to keep it all tidy, and making sure there is nothing on the ground that Jason can get his hands on, and then got to try and find time to unpack,
i get stuck into the house work though once i have done a lot you cant even tell i have done anything at all,
then dependig on the night i have had with boys will depend on how much i will do, if i have had a bad night i dont do to much just the dishers and the bottles, then try and do little bits and pieces when i can and when both of them are napping i try to have one as well, thugh if they have given me a good night i get stuck right into it,
Its jsut never ending,
I dont have time to do anything any more, i dont even have time to scratch my butt let alone having a life, like dont get me wrong i love both my both to pieces and wouldnt give them up for anything or change anything, just sometimes it would be good to have some "me " time even if its only to have a bubble bath or to go for a walk or jsut something,
I have noticed that they dont class being a house wife or a stay at home mum a job, they really need to, as being a mum is a 24/7 job, its never ending, not even when they are sleeping as then either you are listening to them to make sure they are ok, or you are catching up on cleaning
My hat really goes off to mums who look after their children then also hold down a job, i dont think i could go back to work right at the moment as i am just to tired, though i will be returning back once i feel right placing deacan in day care, though at the moment he is just a little bit to young/small to,
*hugs* hunni. Some days are bound to feel overwhelming - but ur strong and can pull it all together. It's not always easy but the rewards of seeing ur beautiful boys grow each day are priceless.... u have the best job in the world.
ReplyDeleteI sometimes don't know how i'll manage with 2 kids on my own as well as studying, but i've come to realise, sometimes it seriously IS ok to leave the dishes or washing til tomorrow and spend more time playing and cuddling with the kids. U can never replace the time u lost when ur kids were young.
xxx