i just dont feel myself latley
to much is going on and i just cant keep a handle on it,
i cant seem to keep up with all the house work, part of the reason is i am jsut so tired all the time i can barley keep my eyes open,
im stressed off my tree, with Deacan being in hospital like yeah he is getting alot better, he is now up on the ward andon 3 hourly feeds, they will be starting to do oral feeds again sometime today and they said hopefully we should be able to bring him home by the weekend
Im trying to clean out the unit and move everything though jsut cant seem to get motivated to do as there is alot to move and pack and only have a week realy to do it in as i cant do anything when i jave jason home from daycare
with the illness that the boys have had they have given it to both daniel and I, daniel has seem to of come right though i jsut cant seem to shake it i have really bad sinus headackes my jaw hurts and when ever something cold hits me my whole body hurts
i feel like i am letting daniel down as a wife as im not keeping up with the house work, i havent cooked tea the past couple of night daniel has, tea should be on cooking when daniel gets home its not fair that he works a hard 8 to 10 hour day then has to cook and so forth, and i have been that tired and sore and everything im just not up for naughty time now,
Im worried about my firend Kym that is only just hanging on, i dont want to loose her, i feel so much pain and hurt for her family and just dont know what to say to them
everything just feels so much at the moment it feels like i have the whole world on my shoulders, i know there is so many more people out there worst off than me, though all i want to do at the moment is cry and curl up in a black hole,
Jason is just constantly on the move now he is getting into everything and trashing everything he touches, i know its part of having kids lol thouh i just cant seem to keep up with him any more
i dont know whats gotten into me i guess i just needed to have a windge
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