Why???

Why am i finding this so hard to deal with?
why is it hurting me for?

I didnt even know i was pregnent, like i thought something was up as my last period was only a very light bleed that didnt even last for a day then i spotted for 2 days after, i started to get some pretty bad cramps today and started spotting like 2 days ago, and im not due for my next period for about like 2 weeks so i went a brought a test i dont knwo what made me think to buy it as daniel and i hae been careful, and yeah when i went to do the test my pad was full of blood and there was a good sized clott in it, so i thought why not jsut do the test any way and there was a faint line there.......

so im guessing i was pregnent though i have misscarried.....
we wasnt even trying for another baby and to be quite honest i dont want to have any more kids i am blessed with my 3 boys....

so why am i finding thi is hurting me for???