What am i doing wrong?

I just cant seem to get ahead, i feel like deacan doesnt like me or doesnt have a bond with me,
he is really moody all the time, i cant seem to settle him, though he will settle for anyone else
does he hate me? does he not want me as him mum? have i dont something wrong?
i really really try not to loose my cool with him though when he just cries and cries and cries for no reason what so ever it really gets to me,
I try everything to settle him,
i change his nappy, his outfit, give him a very warm bottle, i hold him, i burp him i play with him, i talk to him,
And yet most of the time he just wont settle,
what am i doing wrong????
He sleeps during the day when he is settled though when it comes to nihgt he is a compleatly different person, he cries grunts groans, and wont sleep and if he wont sleep he cries non stop so i cant sleep either,
i dont know if its because i am sleeps deprived or have a touch of baby blues, though i really cant handle it
his cries are now getting to me like finger nails on a chalk board,
some times i can feel i am getting that angry my hands are starting to shake, and when that happends i am not game to pick him up or go near him, does that make me a bad mum?
I really dont mean to get so angry at him,
most days i jsut want to sit and cry, as i wonder wha ti have done so wrong to him, for him to be like htis towards me
Everytime i take him out he is a little angel, i take him to my dads and he is fine doesnt play up once... so it makes me look like im making it all up...
i dont remember it being this hard with Jason, and Jason was a very demanding baby,
Poor Deacan has now made me swear off having any more children, as i know i am not going to be able to cope,
and that really upsets me as i would of possibly liked to have one more a good few years down the track though now i dont want to have any more full stop,
please tell me this is jsut a phase he is going through, and he will grow out of it...